I have "Yesterday" by the Beattles stuck in my head. It's such a sad song. I don't think anyone should look into the past and lament about what they had then that they don't now. It's all about looking to the now, and into the future. You can't change the past or what you lost, you can be sad about it, but not to the point that you are neglecting the present. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing that, I think a lot of people do that, especially about their childhood. Lately I have been reminiscing about high school and before with a lot of people. I kind of miss that time because I didn't have to take care of myself and I didn't really have to work hard. Being here means that soon I'm going to graduate, have to find a real job, whether I go to Grad School or not, and take complete care of myself. Who wants to do that? Some people do, I guess, but the prospect scares me more than anything. It might be a fear of failure. What if I can't support myself, if I forget to pay a certain bill, or do something stupid and get fired. I don't feel like an adult, I feel the same as I did when I was younger. There was no epiphany the day I turned 18. In your mind you are always a rational person, even when you are just a kid and everyone else can see that you are immature. Inside yourself, how can you tell when you have passed from "child" to "adult"? And age has nothing to do with it!