Sooooo, I just talked to WuLa about all sorts of things ranging from the newspaper to my religious crisis. Why is it that I always feel really stupid after talking to her? It does get me thinking about what I say. And then she questioned one of the things I said a couple days ago and I have to clarify. I think I should really start thinking things out before I say them. But then, I think I am one of those people who think things out verbally. But at the same time, a lot of times, my mouth stutters because it can't go as fast as my head. Does that mean that I do think things out in my head. Because, by the time I actually get out what I was trying to say, it often is different than the original was going to be. Hmmmmm Does that mean that my internal thoughts, the ones that aren't being formed into words, are not complete or concrete? Or does that mean that I don't think in words? But then, most of the time I'm thinking about stuff, it's in an imaginary conversation. Sometimes the conversant person is a real person and it even has a setting. Is this normal? That's why a blog can work for me, because I can pretend like people are actually going to read this when I know that everyone has given up looking for it. This could be a good thing. What's the point of posting it on the internet? There has always been this random oxymoronic aspect to the whole blog thing.

So now I'm all contemplatey. Is that the same as depressed? It's similar on the outside.