How can I be honest enough to do me any good when I know, or think that possibly, other people are going to read what I write? I guess then it's just a way of keeping in touch with people. La la la.

Keeping in touch with people has always been hard for me. I think that I don't know if people want to keep in touch with me. Do they value my friendship? And so, if they do, wouldn't they get a hold of me. Though I suppose they are in the same circumstances as me. I'm shy. Why do people laugh when I say that? So sad. I am shy, and I just over do it the other way. Man.

Looking at blog. Must change it. It's boring. Uyen's is all pretty and fancy. She definitely got ahead of me in the whole internet page layout thingy......... I just want someone to teach me what I want to know. The darn books and sites are hard to understand.

I'm a morbid morbid person. Is it cheating to reread the blogs and comment on them. I guess I'll just make up for lost time and write billions and billions of words. That's all they are, words. There's no inherent value in any of it.