6.3.10
I think I need to start a nutritional program. Sometimes I think I don't eat enough. I don't pay attention to what I eat, just when I'm hungry and there is something I want to eat. Unfortunately, I hate going to the grocery store and I feel guilty getting fast food. Sometimes when I think through my day and estimate how many calories I've eaten, it doesn't seem to be enough. I may need to start making daily menus...
9.2.10
22.12.09
Andy blogged to the virtual bookclub blog! What an excellent idea! I shall have to come up with something blog worthy.
In other news...
Biggest quandary of the moment: I've been behaving such that, if I can just ignore the aspects of my personality that I don't like, they will go away. I don't think it's working, it may be the latest and greatest part of my self delusion (I'm been working hard on being honest with myself). But if I give in, is it like being my own enabler?
In other news...
Biggest quandary of the moment: I've been behaving such that, if I can just ignore the aspects of my personality that I don't like, they will go away. I don't think it's working, it may be the latest and greatest part of my self delusion (I'm been working hard on being honest with myself). But if I give in, is it like being my own enabler?
23.10.09
29.4.09
Respect for the Strippers
They work hard man! I was invited to go to stripper aerobics last night because, hey, I do bellydancing, so obviously I would be into stripping right? Anyhow, it was the hardest workout I've ever done. My arms are killing me! We did this pseudo pushup thing...crazy. This other girl was telling me she sprained her elbow doing them and had to go to the doctor and try to explain how she did it. Fortunately no injuries or explanations needed for me.
But I think I may actually go back. Some of the exercises targeted areas that I've been trying to get at without any luck. Though I may have given myself whiplash with all the hair flips. Plus, it's always good to have skills to fall back on right?
They work hard man! I was invited to go to stripper aerobics last night because, hey, I do bellydancing, so obviously I would be into stripping right? Anyhow, it was the hardest workout I've ever done. My arms are killing me! We did this pseudo pushup thing...crazy. This other girl was telling me she sprained her elbow doing them and had to go to the doctor and try to explain how she did it. Fortunately no injuries or explanations needed for me.
But I think I may actually go back. Some of the exercises targeted areas that I've been trying to get at without any luck. Though I may have given myself whiplash with all the hair flips. Plus, it's always good to have skills to fall back on right?
7.2.09
I always want to ask people's advice. But then it turns into me whining and coming up with every excuse I can think of why I shouldn't do something while the other person tells me I should. When I make my own decisions, I have to come up with my own reasons to make a change. It can't turn into me winning an argument instead of trying to make a choice, because there is only myself to argue with. It's much scarier because the outcome isn't predetermined.
I've so far stopped myself from asking for anyone's advice except one person. That person turned my crazy thought into a possibility, for which I'm both thankful and annoyed.
Not much time to think either. Should I just go for it? I don't know if I'm strong enough to fail. So far, my lack of motivation has shielded me from the knowledge that I am not the best at anything I choose. It's nice to think that I could do anything I want, if I could just be convinced to put in an ounce of effort.
I've so far stopped myself from asking for anyone's advice except one person. That person turned my crazy thought into a possibility, for which I'm both thankful and annoyed.
Not much time to think either. Should I just go for it? I don't know if I'm strong enough to fail. So far, my lack of motivation has shielded me from the knowledge that I am not the best at anything I choose. It's nice to think that I could do anything I want, if I could just be convinced to put in an ounce of effort.
28.1.09
Many people have gotten overdue or just plain obnoxious emails from me tonight. This is not how I envisioned this night going. Tonight is the first night volunteer tutoring at the library. But it's a new time slot, so none of the kids know that I'm here. Oh well, only 40 more minutes to go. And I did send out some truly overdue emails...
26.1.09
1.1.09
I'm having trouble coming up with concrete goals for the new year. I've got all the normal ones (eating more vegetables is coming in at the top of my list) and am revamping my budget (again), but I can't seem to decide on deadlines for career or personal goals. This is probably because I've never been able to meet a concrete New Years resolution before; the vague "exercise more" goals are the easiest to pretend to I'm following through on. I think my decision making phobia is getting worse.
Note from the random file: last night I met a guy I went to middle school with in Bellingham. I didn't recognize him in person, but I recognized his picture when I went through my yearbooks.
Note from the random file: last night I met a guy I went to middle school with in Bellingham. I didn't recognize him in person, but I recognized his picture when I went through my yearbooks.
20.12.08
The Evil Bunny of Doom!
How's this for proof that all bunnies are trying to take over the world?
After travelling for 3.5 hours to a destination that should have been a 45 minute drive, I was undaunted by snow, broken monorails, or driving 35 mph down the freeway. Movement was consistent, if slow, until I reached the parking lot of my apartment. Then, lo a behold a cute little bunny hopping around in the snow, so of course I had to stop and coo at it, stupid thing. After it hopped merrily along it's way, I tried to complete the last 30 seconds of my journey, but my wheels spun in the unpacked snow on a tiny grade hill that was no problem before I stopped. Argh, bunny! I tried backing up a little and starting over, no go. Backing up a lot, ran into the curb in front of the mailboxes. I finally pointed myself down an exit, got on the main road again, reentered the complex, and drove resolutely past the lair of the evil bunny genius trying to strand enamoured passers-by.
How's this for proof that all bunnies are trying to take over the world?
After travelling for 3.5 hours to a destination that should have been a 45 minute drive, I was undaunted by snow, broken monorails, or driving 35 mph down the freeway. Movement was consistent, if slow, until I reached the parking lot of my apartment. Then, lo a behold a cute little bunny hopping around in the snow, so of course I had to stop and coo at it, stupid thing. After it hopped merrily along it's way, I tried to complete the last 30 seconds of my journey, but my wheels spun in the unpacked snow on a tiny grade hill that was no problem before I stopped. Argh, bunny! I tried backing up a little and starting over, no go. Backing up a lot, ran into the curb in front of the mailboxes. I finally pointed myself down an exit, got on the main road again, reentered the complex, and drove resolutely past the lair of the evil bunny genius trying to strand enamoured passers-by.
18.12.08
Continuation of the Seattle Snowpocalypse Saga:
I walked to work today because I didn't want to risk skidding out. It took me 45 minutes. And man, am I out of shape. I stopped being cold (except for the tip of my nose) about 5 minutes in. I was actually damp from sweat when I got to work. Now I am determined to get a bike and use it once the snow is gone.
The office closed at 2 this afternoon because all the support people (myself included) wanted to leave with plenty of daylight left to get them home. Unfortunately for me, I have an interview tomorrow that had to be finished. I ended up with overtime, while everyone else has to use vacation time to cover their extra hours. If the interview team gets snowed in and can't make the interview, I shall be very displeased.
Once the announcement was made that our office was closing early, we proceeded to be razzed by all of the other offices for being wimps. Apparently someone from the other side of the mountains made a 4 hour trip at 6:15 in the morning in 15 degree weather. And then the photoshopping started. So not only were we not working because we were talking about people abandoning their cars on the freeway, driving the wrong way down the freeway, spinning out in front of us, etc., we had to abandon even the pretense of working and respond to vicious attacks via email.
I think I'm the only person in the company who managed to get anything done today. And how much you wanna bet tomorrow will be more of the same. Except I think I'm going to brave the car tomorrow.
I walked to work today because I didn't want to risk skidding out. It took me 45 minutes. And man, am I out of shape. I stopped being cold (except for the tip of my nose) about 5 minutes in. I was actually damp from sweat when I got to work. Now I am determined to get a bike and use it once the snow is gone.
The office closed at 2 this afternoon because all the support people (myself included) wanted to leave with plenty of daylight left to get them home. Unfortunately for me, I have an interview tomorrow that had to be finished. I ended up with overtime, while everyone else has to use vacation time to cover their extra hours. If the interview team gets snowed in and can't make the interview, I shall be very displeased.
Once the announcement was made that our office was closing early, we proceeded to be razzed by all of the other offices for being wimps. Apparently someone from the other side of the mountains made a 4 hour trip at 6:15 in the morning in 15 degree weather. And then the photoshopping started. So not only were we not working because we were talking about people abandoning their cars on the freeway, driving the wrong way down the freeway, spinning out in front of us, etc., we had to abandon even the pretense of working and respond to vicious attacks via email.
I think I'm the only person in the company who managed to get anything done today. And how much you wanna bet tomorrow will be more of the same. Except I think I'm going to brave the car tomorrow.
17.12.08
It just took me slightly over an hour to get home. Normally it takes me 8 minutes when traffic is heavy. We had to sit there for 20 minutes and watch a car spin out trying to get up a hill with 1/4 inch of snow on it.
Seattle and the surrounding area is such as wimp! All the school districts in King and Snohomish County cancelled school today because it was scheduled to start snowing at 5 pm! My and my tiny car slipped a tiny bit once and I never lost control. Seeing big trucks inching along because it's hailing is disheartening.
Seattle and the surrounding area is such as wimp! All the school districts in King and Snohomish County cancelled school today because it was scheduled to start snowing at 5 pm! My and my tiny car slipped a tiny bit once and I never lost control. Seeing big trucks inching along because it's hailing is disheartening.
24.11.08
Update:
Apparently the SGI-recognizing dude doesn't feel awkward, he keeps trying to speak to me in Japanese...grrr.
I didn't kill my boss, though it was a close thing. Instead I fantasized about the retirement party that I'll hopefully be throwing soon. I've got the guest list made and everything, and he's not on it.
I'm worried about my head. I've been having really bad headaches behind my eyes. Naps don't make them go away, which is my usual medicating techinque.
I'm thinking that next month might be a good time to make large electronics purchases, seeing as there are supposed to be good sales to lure shoppers. I realized that I'll buy a jacket for close to $500 after thinking about it for 5 minutes, but I'm not willing to drop a couple hundred for cell phones or the like. Now that I think about that, it doesn't make sense. Hopefully my jacket will still be around in a couple years...
Apparently the SGI-recognizing dude doesn't feel awkward, he keeps trying to speak to me in Japanese...grrr.
I didn't kill my boss, though it was a close thing. Instead I fantasized about the retirement party that I'll hopefully be throwing soon. I've got the guest list made and everything, and he's not on it.
I'm worried about my head. I've been having really bad headaches behind my eyes. Naps don't make them go away, which is my usual medicating techinque.
I'm thinking that next month might be a good time to make large electronics purchases, seeing as there are supposed to be good sales to lure shoppers. I realized that I'll buy a jacket for close to $500 after thinking about it for 5 minutes, but I'm not willing to drop a couple hundred for cell phones or the like. Now that I think about that, it doesn't make sense. Hopefully my jacket will still be around in a couple years...
