16.6.05
14.6.05
13.6.05
This is the longest weekend of my life!!! And I don't mean the last two days. Every time I say that I'll do something, I mean that I'll do it on Monday, but there is no Monday. With no obligations, no job, there is nothing to anchor the week, so I feel like it's Groundhog's Day. Except it's a Saturday instead of a silly holiday, so I can't even kidnap a rodent and drive into a gravel pit in a crazy attempt to end the madness. (Morbid tidbit, my mom wanted to kill herself by driving into a gravel pit, but she couldn't find one. I think there was one right off the highway, but she wasn't in her right mind you know. Morbid question, how do I know this?)
Things I have accomplished...
Had a job interview today, decided I can't deal with a stupid nothing job, gonna keep looking.
Made an appointment to get a tattoo on Thursday, Squishy from Nemo.
My nails have been a different color every day this week.
My hair has washout highlights, first time I've colored it in any way, ever.
It's STRAWBERRY season in Washington!! (okay I didn't accomplish that, but it's still pretty cool)
I eat out at least once a day now, if not more. It's reeking havoc on my attempt to eat balancedly. Oh yeah, and I gotta find a car for California!!!!!!!! Evilness lurks.
Things I have accomplished...
Had a job interview today, decided I can't deal with a stupid nothing job, gonna keep looking.
Made an appointment to get a tattoo on Thursday, Squishy from Nemo.
My nails have been a different color every day this week.
My hair has washout highlights, first time I've colored it in any way, ever.
It's STRAWBERRY season in Washington!! (okay I didn't accomplish that, but it's still pretty cool)
I eat out at least once a day now, if not more. It's reeking havoc on my attempt to eat balancedly. Oh yeah, and I gotta find a car for California!!!!!!!! Evilness lurks.
6.6.05
Surprise surprise, nothing new to report. I have spent the last two day watching hours and hours of television programs on DVD. I have completed the first seasons of Charmed and Wonderfalls. If you're looking for a new show, I would say a big N-O to Charmed, but Wonderfalls is cute. Too bad I didn't discover it until after it was cancelled. It's about this funky girl who gets ordered around by inanimate animal heads. They get her into trouble and she often doesn't understand what their cryptic instructions mean, but it always turns out in the end.
Okay, I'm way scared that I just wrote a paragraph about a t.v. show...
To Ann: I'm ashamed of you for forgetting your nickname on my site. And I think 253-332-4961 is the number you're looking for. And you can't comment on my blog because I messed with the skin all those many moons ago. Mean to fix it, but I'm scared of losing my links and stuffs.
Okay, I'm way scared that I just wrote a paragraph about a t.v. show...
To Ann: I'm ashamed of you for forgetting your nickname on my site. And I think 253-332-4961 is the number you're looking for. And you can't comment on my blog because I messed with the skin all those many moons ago. Mean to fix it, but I'm scared of losing my links and stuffs.
2.6.05
31.5.05
I picked up an application for Ben Franklin today. I was thinking that I wanted to jump straight into a career-type job...but I guess it would be cool to have a mindless job until I can find something really cool.
No word on the UAE thing yet. Gotta talk to the father to see if he would fund such a trip...but first things first, he can only handle one thing at a time...if he can even handle the one.
Got some leads on the salsa thing. Seattle is not completely devoid of Cuban salsa as I had feared.
No word on the UAE thing yet. Gotta talk to the father to see if he would fund such a trip...but first things first, he can only handle one thing at a time...if he can even handle the one.
Got some leads on the salsa thing. Seattle is not completely devoid of Cuban salsa as I had feared.
30.5.05
Posting posting...
Today was supposed to be the big push that started me off in the right direction...yeah. I woke up at 7:00, went to breakfast with my grandparents at 8:00, picked up a bunch of people and celebrated a friend's birthday for lunch, did some errands and then took a nap. Then we went back out, went back to my grandparents went to the grocery store, ate dinner, and then watched tv for a couple hours.
I tell you. Whoever says that this is not a different time zone was crazy. I went from going to bed at midnight at the very earliest and waking up at 10 or so, to going to bed at 11 at the very latest and waking up between 7 and 9. My body is not used to this and it's definitely taking some time to adjust.
On the plus side, my resume is slightly more developed and I have spent about 5 minutes looking for jobs online. My dad gave me some names...you know, it's possible it could help...maybe. I guess he's just worried about me finding a job. Who knows, I never talk to the man.
Oh yeah, and sorry if I'm boring you with all the inane details of my totally boring life right now. If you hadn't noticed, I spend a lot of time with my family up here. If you're tired of the whole thing, I'd check back in in a few weeks, hopefully I'll have something interesting to report then.
Today was supposed to be the big push that started me off in the right direction...yeah. I woke up at 7:00, went to breakfast with my grandparents at 8:00, picked up a bunch of people and celebrated a friend's birthday for lunch, did some errands and then took a nap. Then we went back out, went back to my grandparents went to the grocery store, ate dinner, and then watched tv for a couple hours.
I tell you. Whoever says that this is not a different time zone was crazy. I went from going to bed at midnight at the very earliest and waking up at 10 or so, to going to bed at 11 at the very latest and waking up between 7 and 9. My body is not used to this and it's definitely taking some time to adjust.
On the plus side, my resume is slightly more developed and I have spent about 5 minutes looking for jobs online. My dad gave me some names...you know, it's possible it could help...maybe. I guess he's just worried about me finding a job. Who knows, I never talk to the man.
Oh yeah, and sorry if I'm boring you with all the inane details of my totally boring life right now. If you hadn't noticed, I spend a lot of time with my family up here. If you're tired of the whole thing, I'd check back in in a few weeks, hopefully I'll have something interesting to report then.
29.5.05
27.5.05
Today I went to lunch with my grandparents at the stupid, totally low-class "restaurant" they go to every Friday. He says he likes the waitresses and that they like him. All he is to them is a tip, and not a fabulous one at that. They live by their regulars.
My grandfather introduced me to Tiffany, forgetting, like he does every time I come home, that I've met her a million times and not realizing that I couldn't care less about her. This time he got to include the little gem about the recent graduation that we're all aware of.
She says, "Congratulations, you must have a lot of patience. After I graduated from high school I just couldn't wait to get a job and move out of the house. And, no offense or anything, but I get paid as much or more than you're going to. People ask me when I'm going to get a real job, but I tell them that I make more money working here than they do working with computers or whatever."
Oh, by the way, this is the girl that spent the entire time complaining how she can't eat anything because she got some wisdom teeth pulled. Not because the teeth are sore, mind you, they're mostly healed. But she has spent so much time compensating with the front part of her jaw that it's tired now too. And she needs to go back for more cleaning, but she doesn't have the money upfront, so she has to wait for a few more months. See, she doesn't have health insurance. But still college is a waste of time and she has no need for a career or anything.
I wanted to say something snooty about how college is about betting yourself and not just about how much money you get paid. But I realized, there's no point. And I realized, even if I do only get paid the same amount as that annoying girl, at least I know something about something, when all she seems to do all day is suck up to people so they'll give her a nice tip so she can get her teeth cleaned.
My grandfather introduced me to Tiffany, forgetting, like he does every time I come home, that I've met her a million times and not realizing that I couldn't care less about her. This time he got to include the little gem about the recent graduation that we're all aware of.
She says, "Congratulations, you must have a lot of patience. After I graduated from high school I just couldn't wait to get a job and move out of the house. And, no offense or anything, but I get paid as much or more than you're going to. People ask me when I'm going to get a real job, but I tell them that I make more money working here than they do working with computers or whatever."
Oh, by the way, this is the girl that spent the entire time complaining how she can't eat anything because she got some wisdom teeth pulled. Not because the teeth are sore, mind you, they're mostly healed. But she has spent so much time compensating with the front part of her jaw that it's tired now too. And she needs to go back for more cleaning, but she doesn't have the money upfront, so she has to wait for a few more months. See, she doesn't have health insurance. But still college is a waste of time and she has no need for a career or anything.
I wanted to say something snooty about how college is about betting yourself and not just about how much money you get paid. But I realized, there's no point. And I realized, even if I do only get paid the same amount as that annoying girl, at least I know something about something, when all she seems to do all day is suck up to people so they'll give her a nice tip so she can get her teeth cleaned.
26.5.05
Day 2: Today I...
*was unable to sleep past 6:30 because I went to sleep at 11 last night
*ate an unhealthy breakfast out with my aunt and great-aunt
*visited my other great-aunt and talked about how I don't know what I'm doing
*went antiquing and found lots of things I can't buy because I have no house and no money
*ate really good strawberry-rhubarb pie with ice cream
*tried to get a new, working cell phone but had to wait until Tuesday when my dad pays the bill
*visited my grandparents and talked about how I don't know what I'm doing
*seriously considered the possibilities of going to the UAE for a while
*made the goal to fix up my resume as soon as possible
*am thinking about changing my blog skin to one with titles
*was unable to sleep past 6:30 because I went to sleep at 11 last night
*ate an unhealthy breakfast out with my aunt and great-aunt
*visited my other great-aunt and talked about how I don't know what I'm doing
*went antiquing and found lots of things I can't buy because I have no house and no money
*ate really good strawberry-rhubarb pie with ice cream
*tried to get a new, working cell phone but had to wait until Tuesday when my dad pays the bill
*visited my grandparents and talked about how I don't know what I'm doing
*seriously considered the possibilities of going to the UAE for a while
*made the goal to fix up my resume as soon as possible
*am thinking about changing my blog skin to one with titles
25.5.05
Anyone wanna hear something kinda depressing?
Last night when the plane started to take off, it hit me even more. As we were going down the runway, one of the worst times for me anyway, I was thinking, maybe the plane will crash and I'll die. I can't see what going to happen from now anyway, maybe I've fulfulled my mission in life. That would certainly make me feel a lot better. I was slightly disappointed when we got up all right.
When we got above the clouds, there was a second sunset. It was pretty cool, but instead of making me feel inspired, it made me more depressed. I think I feel like a failure because I wasn't able to come up with a masterplan for my life and how I am going to contribute to saving the world.
My aunt tried to convince me to spend some time in the Middle East before finding a permanent job here. It's starting to sound pretty good, and the arguments I had against it don't seem to be standing up so well. Don't be surprised if I end up in the UAE for 6 months or so.
Last night when the plane started to take off, it hit me even more. As we were going down the runway, one of the worst times for me anyway, I was thinking, maybe the plane will crash and I'll die. I can't see what going to happen from now anyway, maybe I've fulfulled my mission in life. That would certainly make me feel a lot better. I was slightly disappointed when we got up all right.
When we got above the clouds, there was a second sunset. It was pretty cool, but instead of making me feel inspired, it made me more depressed. I think I feel like a failure because I wasn't able to come up with a masterplan for my life and how I am going to contribute to saving the world.
My aunt tried to convince me to spend some time in the Middle East before finding a permanent job here. It's starting to sound pretty good, and the arguments I had against it don't seem to be standing up so well. Don't be surprised if I end up in the UAE for 6 months or so.
23.5.05
If my posts had titles, this one would be: My First Blog as a Graduate/Alumnus/Alumness
And if it had an emotion indicator, it would be about a 57. I haven't worked out the imaginary scales yet.
I'm going to pack now and see if everything will fit.
My dad forgot the cello. We're going to have to come back for it.
And if it had an emotion indicator, it would be about a 57. I haven't worked out the imaginary scales yet.
I'm going to pack now and see if everything will fit.
My dad forgot the cello. We're going to have to come back for it.
21.5.05
How about a blog since I can't sleep.
Uhh, I can't sleep. Been awake since 5:00am, translating into about 4 hours of sleep. Still have the chance for a couple more hours if I can manage to fall asleep again.
I'm really disturbed by the fact that my dad's friend Delle is here. Firstly, my dad never told me and I'm wondering if he'll be able to get into the ceremony (and hoping that he can't?). It's only luck, recalcitrance, and the fact that I thought my dad might do something like this that I didn't give the ticket away. I've warned Ann and Uyen to not let anything he says reflect on me. If you're out there and you think you may be in danger, by all means, be warned. Hopefully they'll avoid him, that's what I plan on doing.
Since I've been lying awake, I've been having daydreams about telling him off and not allowing him to come today or tomorrow. If he's annoying or obnoxious, I think I may actually forbid him to come, or a least cut him off really shortly. This is my thing right? I can invite anyone I want, and I didn't even invite him. I would understand why he's here if we had borrowed his truck, but we didn't.
Oh yeah, did I tell you? There's no truck, only a minivan. I am very annoyed, and if it all doesn't fit, he's just going to have to rent a U-Haul. Why do I have to be annoyed at my own graduation?
Can you tell what's on my mind? See you tomorrow, maybe for the last time for a while.
Uhh, I can't sleep. Been awake since 5:00am, translating into about 4 hours of sleep. Still have the chance for a couple more hours if I can manage to fall asleep again.
I'm really disturbed by the fact that my dad's friend Delle is here. Firstly, my dad never told me and I'm wondering if he'll be able to get into the ceremony (and hoping that he can't?). It's only luck, recalcitrance, and the fact that I thought my dad might do something like this that I didn't give the ticket away. I've warned Ann and Uyen to not let anything he says reflect on me. If you're out there and you think you may be in danger, by all means, be warned. Hopefully they'll avoid him, that's what I plan on doing.
Since I've been lying awake, I've been having daydreams about telling him off and not allowing him to come today or tomorrow. If he's annoying or obnoxious, I think I may actually forbid him to come, or a least cut him off really shortly. This is my thing right? I can invite anyone I want, and I didn't even invite him. I would understand why he's here if we had borrowed his truck, but we didn't.
Oh yeah, did I tell you? There's no truck, only a minivan. I am very annoyed, and if it all doesn't fit, he's just going to have to rent a U-Haul. Why do I have to be annoyed at my own graduation?
Can you tell what's on my mind? See you tomorrow, maybe for the last time for a while.
20.5.05
14.5.05
The first day of Capstone-freedom... ...
I'm gonna have a store and be really strict. All the worker-people are going to always be polite and keep everything organized...or they're fired. I hate it when the stores are all disorganized. And when the worker-people are disinterested or rude or just odd-seeming.
I'm gonna have a store and be really strict. All the worker-people are going to always be polite and keep everything organized...or they're fired. I hate it when the stores are all disorganized. And when the worker-people are disinterested or rude or just odd-seeming.
