It's all Ally's fault!! She made me go and ask the official people, and she knows I always tell everything, and I didn't know anything!! Stupid stupid. So maybe now I have to apply for some change in my visa and all that stupidity because of my stupid job!

I hope this thing doesn't fizz out on me.

Connected today with the local underground SGI. It's like a spy mission in a Christian university. Next we will all be wearing black and skulking about campus trying the shakabuku people. Won't that be fun?!?!

But I'm supposed to be converting while I'm here. I forgot.

Sooo, interesting weekend, went to the onsen with exchange students and a whole bunch of Japanese freshmen girls. I'm sure Ally will tell you all about it. Now I don't know what to say because Ally and I have been sitting here talking about it for the last hour.

Highlights:
*Ally is a bad girl.
*The word itadakimasu can be used in so many more ways than it is. For instance, while playing tennis or taking pictures.
*There needs to be something to do while drinking, not just drinking. nomi nagara...
*Freshmen are SO young!
*Always have the drinking party in someone else's room or you sill be stuck with no place to sleep and a mess in the morning.
*You should never say the words "sekushi pousu" (sexy pose) to teachers...but
*Teachers can play the game as well as students
*I miss Japanese people I can actually communicate with and want to communicate with!
*Sammi is strong woman for leaving the bathing suit behind.

Last Friday Ally and I bought shoes!! We both bought Converse. Mine are pink, and Ally made me buy sparkly laces. They, the shoes AND the laces, make me happy, even though the lases are too short and the shoes take way to long to put on, especially for Japan. I also bought this crazy, expensive thing, but I can't tell you what it is, just in case it ends up as a present. I don't know what I'm going to do with it yet.

So much is happening all over the world, except right here. All my fault. I think I'm going to go see a taiko perform next week or sometime. I wonder if I would be closer to the other exchange students if Sammi and Ally weren't here. Or would I be even more of a recluse than I am? My thoughts are turning more and more random, I wonder if that's a bad thing or a good thing. But then when it's time to think, I can't do it. Just sit back and let it flow.

Going to Nisseko this weekend. Ought to be interesting. I don't think all the exchange students have been in one location in a while. More slumber parties like when we first got here. That was fun, hopefully it will be fun again.

So, we had a big test today. Covering 6 chapters or so. After the speaking part, when we had to talk with the teacher, she asked me if I had studied a lot. I guess that means I did well...she kept making little comments during the test, but I just figured that's part of the whole "be supportive" thing. Anyway, so I didn't study that hard, I just understood the questions a lot better this time. I hope it's because I'm getting better, not because it was easy stuff. But then we were talking about how we are almost done with the book and what are we going to do when we finish it. I hope we can just have discussion classes or work on vocabulary or keep practicing what we know. There can't be all that much grammer left to learn anyway that we can't learn just by talking. I need to speak in Japanese more often.

I had a dream about moving back to campus for the last year. It wasn't sad or crazy or weird or antyhing, it was just normal. It was pretty real, except for a few details, like Cassie and Uyen aren't living together and stuff like that. So I'm worrying about my ability to "enjoy the now." I guess I'm not. Arrgghh

Ahh man, talking to people and remembering just makes things sad. DARN YOU SUA! What are we going to do after we graduate in 366 days. There's the number: the countdown has begun. Always forget that there will be homework and work involved next year. It should be just reminiscing and having fun.

On a positive note, I painted my nails all shiny and now I just want to look at them all day long. There is a newfound appreciation for nail...am I going to have to start taking care of them? That would cut some time out of my sleeping schedule.

Going to a Shakespeare play tonight, by a British troope. It will be in English of course, but I wonder if I will understand it.

Is it more fun gossiping about SUA in Japan than it was at school? Maybe just because gossip here means I really go care. VOV says gossip is bad, but I never did it to be mean, I just was to know what's going on, and I'm too shy to ask them myself.

Bloggy bloggy bloggy. Ah, just watched a StrongBad Email. What a happy thing. Sooo, with Sokites leaving the building and the Soka diaspora returning to the homeland, I'm feeling a little behind. I feel like we just started, but we've been going for more than a month. I haven't made any breakthroughs yet, I don't think. But I really want to, isn't that the point of this excursion? And I just heard that we have no Japanese classes for next year. Lovely.

Gonna get better, gonna get better.

I am not good with change! Have we noticed this? I have. So why go and make changes where NONE ARE NEEDED? Just adds more confusion to my life.

Went to see pretty flowers today. Pretty plum flowers. It kinda confuses me as to why they are plum trees, they don't put out plums...which I think is an integral part of the plum tree. So anywho, they are pretty, but not quite all the way bloomed yet. So maybe we'll go back next week. We went in the morning because it gets so crowded during peek hours. So maybe only a few people can go, but it will still be fun anyway.

I'm feeling a bit separated from the other abroaded studiers. I was feeling like we were all integrating pretty well, but lately I have been hanging out with only Sammi and Ally. I hope it doesn't continue like this, but they are the people I see the most, because we have 12 hours of Japanese class together every week... Not to mention that now a certain evil one is ignoring me now. Not that I want us to be friends, but is a casual hello too much to ask for? Apparently so for this one. Whatever, just as long as it doesn't become something annoying.

And I'm getting sick!! Sure taking it's sweet time though. I just want to get it over with!

Quickly quickly, must get home to dinner!

So I now have Ally hooked on blogging. She drags ME in here to blog with her. What do I have to say? I have no life, nothing to report. Except that, why do I have a job and no one else does? It's like the world has frozen over and hell has ended, or something like that.

There is a big test on Monday. So far, I have managed to sleep an extra three hours, waste two sending pictures to Alex so that he won't harrass my program coordinator anymore, and pretended to study for about five mintues. Ain't I good folks?? This test aughta be a breeze. Except for the speaking part. Who says you need to be able to speak a language to be able to speak a language?

So I got my classes, whoop-de-doo. Why was I freaking out for so long? Life is a sad. My life is measured by the amount of time I spend freaked out.

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Everyone's doing it, you should too.

Life in the Fast Lane. Or not.

So everyone has been writing sad things, and it makes me sad. The Mad Three (that's my spur of the moment name for us) have been reminiscing like, well, mad lately. I wonder if it's driving others insane. It's certainly driving me insane. The major downside of SUA: getting us all attached to each other. It's like there's still an umbilical cord connecting us all to the mothership. Sooner or later it's going to have to be cut. And you know how it is with chicken pox: the older you are the worse it is. Yeah, I like mixing my analogies, it's fun.

So, Japanese people will watch ANYTHING. They have the randomest shows. I watched one where they put really obscure kanji up and made the people guess the reading for it. And they were all celebrities. I mean, come on people, make a movie or something. And then there was one where they were playing kids games, the kind were you have to clap in rhythm and do some brainy thing at the same time without losing the rhythm or messing up. Craziness. It was funny to watch...for about 2 minutes, and then I had to change the channel.

ARGGGGHHHH Next time around, I will not be in the 1st class. I have no classes to take. But that's okay, I won't be able to register for them anyway, so it's all good.

So, after having three 3-hour literature classes in Japan, I think I'm pretty safe in saying that I'm thankful for the classes at SUA. We read interesting books in class or course, but the discussions are a little limited. Partially it could be because there are only three English speakers in the class besides the teacher, but there is also something about the depth of the questions. He always seems to be concerned about how Japan is portrayed and whether it is an actual portrayal or not. Hello, you're American, and no matter how much you pretend to know about Japan, the truth is that you're still a foreigner who has lived here for a few years. Plus, it's Japanese people writing about themselves, so let them be. And we don't need a summary or a warmup, bring on the tough questions. Just different I suppose, but I don't come out of the class with great and grand new ideas like sometimes happens at SUA, even in a regular run-of-the-mill they-made-me-take-it courses.

Anyway, it sure didn't steal that one. HAHAHAHAHA I have fooled the evil computer masters. Now I need to go do some homework or something.

Eep, the thingy stole my entry. I don't like it when it does that, but I don't know how to make it stop.

And that just makes me sad and not want to write anything...........

I have this weird headache thing going on. I get lots of sleep at night because I am SOOOO tired here for some reason, but I still get headaches. I don't know where they come from, unless they come from thinking too hard.

Oh yeah. And somehow, I've become motivated enough to be a good studied. I have been studying sooooo much in the past week. It's pretty cool, even though I don't really feel like I know all that much more, but I might eventually, so I'm gonna try to keep it up.

Monday monday, wish it were Sunday. Took a placement test today. I don't quite understand how it will place us, the questions were pretty easy to guess on. Anyway... why do I have the feeling I'm going to be stuck in a lower class than I should? I guess that would be okay for reviewing things like particles and the like, but I want to learn how to say stuff to. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic today.

Not really comfortable with the host family yet, I hope it will happen though. It's just weird with the host father. I don't know if I should stay out of his way or what. I'm sure part of it is just that it's new and that's normal. Everyone elses host family sounds really cool.

This sure is a loud keyboard.

I am hungry, but the cafeteria was WAY too crowded when we went over there. Gonna try again later.

Good thing I have a pass that will get me from here to home as many times as I want, because there is nothing to do here now, and if I had to pay to go home, I would be pretty angrified I think.

And what is up with SUA registration. I'm going to develop a twitch if I don't get an email soon. You know, it would have been nice if I had been informed that it's postponed in the first place, instead of having to ask about it. Here I was, thinking that I'm going to be stuck in all 100 courses because I'm out of reach, when all along, nothing is going on. Japanese people write in run-on sentences, I may start doing the same thing.

I hate having two blogs!!!

Inner thoughts, inner thoughts. I having problems separating my inner thoughts from the mush in my brain. And I have 15 minutes in which to do it. Yeah right. And email!!

This is where I'm meeting Jason+
5th subway stop: ima de gawa
Exit 1 at the bottom

3 minutes...gotta go eat lunch. I'm hungry. Jason sure doesn't seem like he fits MY definition of a global citizen, for all that he lives in another country and apparently like Japanese stuff. After this trip, I may have to only see him occasionally. Maybe I'll take a class from a different proffessor. A bunch of the other students are pissed off at him, and who knows how the rest of the trip will go. Hopefully, I will stay busy elsewhere in Tokyo. I gotta go, gotta go!!

What is going on here?

I've got a plan, and that makes me feel good. But the plan, well, truth be told, there are four or five plans, can't begin until I'm back at Soka. So I need a plan for Japan. I think it will be a lot easier when I have a purpose in Japan and am not just a lazy bum spending money all over the place.

At least today I held back. There were earrings that I didin't need...and I didn't buy them...and I only sort of regret it now. On the other hand, I got a messengery-bag type deal that I've been wanting for a long time. Now let's just see if it will last longer than a week!!

So far, I have met two students from the fourth class. One is Yoko Shimura, the daughter of the Japanese Willy Wonka. Isn't that wonderful! But she's really nice. She just graduated from a different university, Tamagawa University. Both Conny and I needed to buy shoes for the graduation ceremony, but 1)they were all over $100 dollars, way over, and 2) none of them fit.

So she came with us to help us find shoes. Turns out, we can fit into the size L shoes, we were just not doing it right before. You need to wear stalkings for it to work. She also showed us a place where all the shoes were on sale for $26. So I got two. Not that I need two pairs, but that's okay, they're cool. One pair is really pointy, which is weird, since I've never had pointy shoes before, but I'll get used to them.

The other girl is Risako Doi, straight from Soka High School. We went to their International Club meeting yesterday and hung out for the day. Did you know Maju was the president of the International Club? I sure didn't, and now I'm going to make fun of her!! Risako lived in the U.S. for four years, so her English is really good. It was weird to speak regular English with Japanese people, and it was still really stunted. Alas, I don't think I'm going to be able to take a Kehlen class next year, at least, not first semester!!

Wrote a really long letter today.

Was annoyed by a bunch of chanters.

Sat in the sun.

Listened to the trees talk.

Watched the birds play.

Found peace in a turbulent seashore.

How do waves work anyway?

Ate too much, and it was good.

Stared off into space while pretending to listen.

Learned a new Japanese phrase.

Became excited about a future class.

Wanted to scream and throw a fit.

Wanted to sleep all day long.

Wanted to escape the craziness.

Wanted to say, "hope to see you soon."

Wanted a culture that I understand.

Wanted to be a people person.

Wanted to forget about tomorrow.

Wanted to express my feelings in song.

Life is not on hold, no matter that this place is not my place. The world keeps spinning, and work progresses even though I'm gone. No one will wait for me, so I should wait for no one.