I always want to ask people's advice. But then it turns into me whining and coming up with every excuse I can think of why I shouldn't do something while the other person tells me I should. When I make my own decisions, I have to come up with my own reasons to make a change. It can't turn into me winning an argument instead of trying to make a choice, because there is only myself to argue with. It's much scarier because the outcome isn't predetermined.

I've so far stopped myself from asking for anyone's advice except one person. That person turned my crazy thought into a possibility, for which I'm both thankful and annoyed.

Not much time to think either. Should I just go for it? I don't know if I'm strong enough to fail. So far, my lack of motivation has shielded me from the knowledge that I am not the best at anything I choose. It's nice to think that I could do anything I want, if I could just be convinced to put in an ounce of effort.