I read in an article that some people think that humans are genetically predisposed to monogamy because of emotions like jealousy. I don't think they meant it as any special comment on human beings, but it translated in my mind to: our foremost emotion is jealousy. And now I'm kinda obsessed with the idea. It keeps coming up in my thoughts. When I start tracking my thoughts, the first thing that comes up is jealousy. And in thinking about it, I've discovered that I am an extraordinarily jealous person.

I'm jealous of people's success
I'm jealous of people's time
I'm jealous of people's happiness and laughter
I'm jealous of people who seem to be okay with themselves
I'm jealous of people's health, mental and physical
I'm jealous of people's peace
I'm jealous of people who have people to understand them
I'm jealous of people who are open

But the whole time, I tell myself not to be. Is it like the negative feedback psychology thingy? Because I keep mentioning it, it's always on my mind?